“RELUCTENTLY” (re-write)
As I dare to dive into yon sparkling sea,
I was drawn to purge my heart in its tranquility.
And struggled so hard I did,
to avoid its tranquil deep.
Still, I’m dazzled and dazed,
Mesmerized and nearly paralyzed by this,
your barest essence
The birth of your love,
In which I wish so to bath.
Each spark of your love compounded and refined,
As it was volleyed back and forth between your will and mine.
Until it exploded into thousands of thousands ofs.
And as I strained to dare, dare to turn and run,
I was overtaken by the surge of this beguilingly calm Sea of Tranquility.
Then found I myself rooted to the beach of your love.
Overtaken I was,
By a mighty wave of I must-
Dare I? Must not!
I found a reluctant strength,
In knowing –
A knowing that it more powerful than hoping;
And by knowing, I was pulled from rest in thy breast;
From the shore of yon sea.
Through the portals of your soul
For we both know
Even so reluctantly,
That this like many hopes
Are dreams of fantasy over powered by this reality.
For that we know should be
We wish could be
But we also know what is
Therefore, what isn’t can’t be;
Or can it?
Pondering o’er such a question finds a song
Wrote long ago flowing through my mind
But not my heart:
“It’s over; before it starts, it’s over!
To warm my bed and rest my head,
Shall never be.
To hold my hand and understand;
Such pain I see – in knowing
That before it starts,
It is over.”
This fairytale is over;
“Reluctantly”
Before it starts-
IT’S OVER
By Sammie L. Carter
Copyright 4/15/1977 Sam373
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~ by Sam373's Blog on May 14, 2020.
Posted in Opinion, Poetry, Relationship, Socialization
Tags: Feelings, Love, Poetry
Hi Sam
It is a pleasure to meet you. I can understand you are excited about God like I am.
I wanted to share what I wrote with you to see what you think since you are also a writer.
I could not get it to go through your email. I will give you a hard copy next week.
Sincerely,
Jeff
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Hi Sam, its been a long, long while… I saw your Like on a recent past post… And good to reconnect…. A poignant yet at the same time hopeful poem.. For ALL things are possible if we hold enough faith within them..
Wishing you well upon your journey .
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